There was once a girl named Cori. She was a lucky girl. She had good friends and a great family. Life was going well. In November, Cori had a very good weekend. She got her last certification test out of the way, spent time with fun friends, caught up with friends she had not seen in awhile, and had a wonderful Sunday morning church service. In all it was a terrific, fantastic, fun, very good weekend.
However, life turns in circles and every good thing seems to have an opposite. Today was my day spent as Alexander, with a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day! My teacher was absent and I had no sub. That would have been fine, but my kids took it upon themselves to be demonic today. I don't know what possessed them, but it was outrageous! Almost hilarious, after the fact. So, I make it through school and leave, just to discover that somehow I had a flat tire. I made it to a 7-11 to get free air. As I start pumping, I discover that somehow I ran over something and have a hole in my tire. Every bit of air I am putting into that tire is shooting out of the hole! And of course, my phone was dead! So there I sit at 7-11 in my pretty teacher clothes, dumb me decided to wear a skirt today, trying to jack up my car so I can change my tire. This would have worked, I do know how to change a tire (thanks mom), however it was windy and freezing and my fingers were numb. So an easy job turned into a 45 minute struggle to get my jack to work. Finally some guy decided to take pity on my freezing ineptitude and changed my tire for me. So, knowing that I shouldn't take the highway to get back to the North part of the city, I try to find my way back. I only thought I knew my way around. Ha, that was a fun experience. I spent about an hour lost, didn't make it back in time to work, had enough time to print out my papers for class, go to class and discover there is no class.
So here I sit. I am finally home. In a warm apartment, thanking God that today is over. It could have been so much worse. Something bad could have happened, instead of a few inconviences. God took care of me again, and made sure that I wasnt hurt. From now I will keep my phone charged, and will keep trusting. Reading back through this, it wasn't that horrible of a day, and is almost funny...almost.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Oh, Those Questions
Do you ever feel like you're wasting time? Like you aren't quite doing what God wants you to be doing? Like you're stuck? What am I supposed to be doing with my life? Why is it so aggrivating to me that I can't know God's plan right away?
This semester has been super aggrivating for me. Student Teaching has been highly beneficial and I feel like I am prepared to teach. However, at the same time I am chomping at the bit. I feel like I am wasting time. I teach all day, work until six in the evenings, have class, planning, homework from my other classes, and am still expected to have a social life. Being a very social person, the social life comes easy. The teaching is fun and I look forward to it every morning. However, the classes, the homework, and the other mundane tasks that I keep running into just feel like roadblocks. I am tired of jumping through hoops and "performing dog tricks" just to be successful as a teacher. I feel like I am just going through the motions. I do not like it.
But I know God has something planned for me that is so much more than what I am facing now. I have wonderful friends who put up with my rantings, a good school who looks out for me and my future, and a great family who has my back through it all. I may not know exactly what God has in my future. That scares me more than is imaginable. I may not always be happy with where I am, but I know I am preparing for something incredibly amazing. In truth, I have daily freak-outs about life and graduation. I am scared to death! I hate not knowing where I am going, or when, or with who, or whatever. God has it all, and will guide it all. As long as I have faith in Him, I know it all be okay. Life will be awesome and I am as excited about living as I am scared.
This semester has been super aggrivating for me. Student Teaching has been highly beneficial and I feel like I am prepared to teach. However, at the same time I am chomping at the bit. I feel like I am wasting time. I teach all day, work until six in the evenings, have class, planning, homework from my other classes, and am still expected to have a social life. Being a very social person, the social life comes easy. The teaching is fun and I look forward to it every morning. However, the classes, the homework, and the other mundane tasks that I keep running into just feel like roadblocks. I am tired of jumping through hoops and "performing dog tricks" just to be successful as a teacher. I feel like I am just going through the motions. I do not like it.
But I know God has something planned for me that is so much more than what I am facing now. I have wonderful friends who put up with my rantings, a good school who looks out for me and my future, and a great family who has my back through it all. I may not know exactly what God has in my future. That scares me more than is imaginable. I may not always be happy with where I am, but I know I am preparing for something incredibly amazing. In truth, I have daily freak-outs about life and graduation. I am scared to death! I hate not knowing where I am going, or when, or with who, or whatever. God has it all, and will guide it all. As long as I have faith in Him, I know it all be okay. Life will be awesome and I am as excited about living as I am scared.
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